Does it ever happen with you that, you are pissed at something/someone, you don't discuss it with anyone and then you kind of forget it after a few hours.BUT YOU ARE STILL PISSED. Your friends go like, "hey what happened ? you okay? you look like you just stepped on dog's shit !" and all you can answer is " yeah I am okay, of course duh !" then some more friends bug you with the same question and then your family members and of course some of your colleagues, who have only limited stock of words like 'Hi' and 'Bye' for you.
Some of you must be wondering, "jeez ! he doesn't remember why is he pissed? what a loser !"
and I am sure some of you must be thinking, "ohh yeah ! yea yeah yea, it does happen with me but you just said it, you are damn right",well yeah thank you, most of the times I am, but you guys realized it just now...LOSERS !
But the point is, It does happen. With me it happens a LOT and I know a few more people who face the same problem.Quick agitations,unreasonable mood swings, severe depressions, irritability,self-loathing, concentration problems, loss of interests, unexplainable headaches, abnormal aversions. well,Been there, been that !!
I don't know what is it called, but Bipolar Syndrome sounds the closest of all. It is very common in 20 somethings. But well, when you are facing it, all you want to do is; jump from a suicide point, shout at every random person you see (kids, aunties, grown ups,blinds, dumbs, retards well yeah everyone), slap anyone who argues or is tooooooo polite,kill for money,fire bullets,throw your dinner plate away, kick an ass (figuratively, literally and metaphorically), punch glass doors,abuse loudly, curse and be meaningfully mean,eyeball every bitch,show middle finger to every jerk, get doped, be dead sarcastic and well yeah of course murder 'that' person !
If you are wondering how often it occurs and why it occurs, then let me tell you..it happens in series and sequences, morning, afternoon, evening, night, it just keeps getting accumulated and then when you get up the next morning you look like a fucked up zombie and your attitude worse than a psychopath. It takes sometime to get out of the system and by the time it gets over, it has already taken a lot out of you.
P.S : FUCK as I wrote all this I am getting in that zone, for more than one reason !