Sunday, April 26, 2009


Sometimes I scribble madly, to see how I WRITE,
sometimes I WRITE my mind and end up having a fight.

Sometimes I feel my dark shines so BRIGHT,
sometimes my LIGHT surrenders to the black night.

Sometimes I ridicule myself in a MIRROR
sometimes my SHADOW mimics Me,when I go nearer.

Sometimes I cut myself to see if it BLEEDS,
sometimes BLOOD refuses to clot & I fulfill my needs.

Sometimes I abandon myself in a CROWD,
sometimes the CROWD turns deaf, when I scream aloud.

Sometimes I want my world to stop EXISTING,
sometimes my EXISTENCE cries, for that soul keeps resisting.

P.S : It's Just a poem, trust me !

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

вℓσggєя ß.Ú.Ď.Ď.Ĩ.Ĕ.Ś

I created a blogger community on orkut called 'Blogger B.U.D.D.I.E.S' and i know so many of you are a part of it but No one bothers to open it up or participate in the forum. The threads are dull and the members are still less. So it's a request to all those bloggers who are still not a part of it, that please join the community and the existing members please contribute there. I am not against discussing serious topics like 'Terrorism' neither i am against , playing "who is the most lovely Jodi in the page" kind of games. All I need is an active participation.

For the Orkut link click here

And now to all the Orkut haters and Boys out there, there is also a site Which is a combination of your 'thobda' and your 'book'. Yes I am talking about Facebook. I have created an almost similar group over there too, It took me almost six months to figure out how and why should I have a community on FB but I figured it out finally.

For the FB link click here

P.S : Give me some suggestions or ideas If you really think you have one ;)

Saturday, April 18, 2009

SING-errrr ME !

"If you can sing then you can sing and if you can't sing, then you can't sing."

That was my whole point for a friendly debate, which later went on to become a serious one. The other day I was discussing with my friends about a few wannabes. They have this flaunting hobbies, for learning music, guitar & even dancing and they kinda screw themselves up in the process. My whole idea was, that you must have at least some musical sense, some rhythmic sense, somewhere in your brain for learning music. It's more of a gift, without it you can't sing or play musical instruments.

Imagine a 30 year old guy, with a horrible squeaky voice, with no rhythmic sense at all trying to sing "tera tera tera surror". Ok you teach him for 5 years and i am damn sure he won't show any improvement and Now imagine a 3 year old kid, who can barely speak, and has a vague and fumbling accent but a good musical sense. you teach him for 5 years and by the time he is 8 he will out shadow that man.

Ok i know a few of you must be thinking exactly opposite of what my concept is. For those who think my thoughts are not congruent enough with their opinions, Let me share something about myself. I sing, i never learned music, i mess up my scale, beats, tune,expressions, honestly a lot of things,a lot of time, but still there are a few people who say I am a damn good singer, I sing like Sonu Nigam, Atif Aslam, Niraj shreedhar(bombay vikings) and don't know who else on this earth.My point is, that I realize when I make mistakes, and that's when I curse myself for not learning music, I could have done a far better justice with my voice if i had learned it and to understand that I have a little sense in me since I was born.

My friends then debated that singing may be tough but it is not actually the same case with dancing or learning guitars. Now I want to ask that, what happens when in the school u see a kid, doing a horrible job at the march past ? and some doing it absolutely fine. Is he sick ? or is he bad in grasping things? I guess he just doesn't have a sense to catch the drumbeats & dancing, for that matter surely needs more than that, you must have flexibility along with your rhythmic sense which obviously you can't generate one morning when you get up and feel dancing like Hrithik Roshan.

For learning guitar, again you have to have the dedication & if you are a wannabe, with insanely long nails(which will hurt while playing it) or you have seen a guitar hanging on the wall and which tells all it's life's story about how the spiders spun their web inside it since you were a tiny ass, and you being an arachnophobiac, never touched it, then let's face it, you cannot learn guitars!

The debate was over that day but I don't think anyone else was as satisfied as I thought would be. I had said whatever I wanted to say since long, directly or indirectly to a few wannabes who actually have no idea how much they suck when they do it just for flaunting.

Hey btw here's a collage of whatever little i did in my college I mean the so-called-stage-singing.
In case you have a feeling that i am a braggart :D

Gawd!! I am on a collage making spree these days :D

Sunday, April 5, 2009

My 1st century ever !

I am bored,jobless, blank & incapable of using FB and thats what ..makes me do this tag !!

1. Last beverage? Badam milk !

2. Last phone call? Vodafone customer care (they and me in this beautiful world).

3. Last text message? surprisingly from the person who tagged me ..(yes I am talking about Y2A).

4. Last song you listened to? angel eyes -Raghav.

5. Last time you cried? Boys don't cry ;)


6. Dated someone twice ? Hell no !!

7.Been cheated on? Yes and that person was very close to me.

8.Kissed someone & regretted it? Actually did not kiss and regretted that.

9. Lost someone special? haan !

10. Been depressed?? Ohh so many times ...!

11. Been drunk? Nah ..I dun booze i am an ancient guy :P


(Yes I sound like Shaurya's K.K Menon)


15.Made new friends ? Yes at least a dozen of them ...and some of them are bloggers.

16. Fallen out of love? Excuse me, is that ..a cab or some roller coaster ?

17. Laughed until you cried? Yes but never did it the other way round.

18. Met someone who changed you? No i actually change with the seasons and with my hair cut.

19. Found out who your true friends were? Yes and I am so very proud of it.

20. Found out someone was talking about you? Ohh i get to know that daily but i dun give a shit. Salman Khan inspires me.

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list? Male friends ..obviously not, female friends...again obviously not.


23. How many kids do you want to have? hum 2 humare 2 !

24. Do you have any pets ? NO they hate having me !

25. Do you want to change your name? you gotta be kidding me!

26. What did you do for your last birthday? Celebrated it ..duh !

27. What time did you wake up today? It did not get up today ..coz i am still awake's 2:30 A.M now.

28. What were you doing at midnight last night? Was watching HEROES.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for? My degree.

30. Last time you saw your father? 1st of March around 2:30 P.M (wow My memory rocks :P)

31. What is the one thing you wish you could change about your life? Ohhh I should have switched my field after 12th.

32. What are you listening to right now ? My inner self,how cool is that ?

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom ? No I am Peter, but I still live in India.

34. What's getting on your nerves right now? My CPU ...grrr ..wanna throw it away X-(

36. Whats your real name ? Ashwani

37. Relationship Status - very much single

38. Zodiac sign - Gemini

39. Male or female - Male

40. Elementary School- St.Xaviers

41. Middle School- Kendriya Vidyalaya.

42. High school- JPS.

43. Hair color- Black

44. Long or short- That's subjective.I am taller than KHANS but shorter than Bacchans :P

45. Height - 5'9.5"

46. Do you have a crush on someone - Yes !

47. What do you like about yourself?- Did you just , forget the word 'Not' in between. coz this answer cud take a life time otherwise.

48. Piercings- No I get freaked out even by the idea ..GAWD !! I saw Roadies 5.0's finale.

49. Tattoos - NO I hate Tommy Lee.

50. Righty or lefty - Righty


51. First surgery? when i was 13

52. First piercing ? No first, no second, never had any ..dun want to have any ever.

53. First tattoo- That was more ova sticker I used to get with 'Boomer' and of course then i did not hate Tommy lee ..and did not know Who the hell this Pamela Gal was :P

54. First best friend - Not one least 6 of them.

55. First sport you joined - I have always played sports for fun, never took it seriously.

56. First pet- Yeah A Dinosaur! A 'Homo erectus' Precisely .

57. First vacation - umm May be Orissa.

58. First concert - Asma (chandu k chacha wale yaar !)

59. First crush- Okay, that would be a difficult one.

60. First alcohol drink - Shshhhsshhh !


61. Eating - It's 3 A.M I am not even H of Hungry.

62. Drinking- Had water ..a few mins back ..(this tag is kinda long #:-s)

63. I'm about to - Reach the 64th point.

64. Listening to- My inner self ..and It's still cool B-)

65. Waiting for - 66th point. and here it is :D


66. Want kids? why You selling them ?

67.Want to get married? Umm yes once at least :P

68. Careers in mind?: Want to continue with my Biotech thngy ....letz see !


69. Lips or eyes - It's like asking ..'Angelina Jolie' or ..'Aishwarya Rai' ? Btw I want both the things in a girl. Any gal without either of the two will look damn ugly i tell u.

70. Hugs or kisses - Male Hugs and female ..kisses and hugs both.

71. Shorter or taller- shouldn't be taller than me and that's it.

72. Older or Younger - Ohh no kids and no aunties ....pleeeezee !

73. Romantic or spontaneous - Spontaneously romantic or romantically spontaneous.

74. Nice stomach or nice arms- stomach, ..i mean i dun want someone muscular.

75. Tattoos or piercing - Yes, both,but not on every single body part possible.

76. Sensitive or loud - neither an emotional fool and nor a loud mouth.

77. Hook-up or relationship- Relationship (a real one)

78. Trouble maker or hesitant - neither of the two.


79. Kissed a stranger - YEs and then I died.

80. Drank hard liquor - Yes and then i came back to my senses.

81. Lost glasses/contacts → I don't have one.

82. Sex on first date - Nah

83. Broken someone's heart - Yes I had to.

83. Had your heart broken - Yes but I don't complain.

85. Been arrested? - Abe Yeh tag kissney banaya hai ?

86. Turned someone down - Yes and there is nothing glorious about it.

87. Cried when someone died - well I did that .so far, touch wood.

88. Liked a friend that is a girl? - No, Pyaar dosti nahi hai (SRK are u listening ?)


89. Yourself - Ohh There are times when I don't.

90. Miracles - Yes, I perform miracles.

91.Love at first sight- At least I believe in infatuation in First sight, which can turn in to love, in most of the cases, it's one sided though.

92. Heaven- Yes I have been there ;)

93. Santa Claus - No I believe in Banta Claus though.

94. Kissing on the first date? - Well yeah, I do.

95. Angels - Yes I don't have my wings, else i am very close to being one.


96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? - Yes 300 Fellas I went High school with.

97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? - What do you think I am ?

98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? - Ohh well Yes, But It has to be with someone really perfect.

99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? - Ohh c'mon ! Orkut gives me 5 options at least !

100. Who's the most awesome kid ever? 'Home Alone' wala baccha :D