This is my 50th Post.
So what ? I don't have even a single reason to be jubilant about it, coz Perhaps the weather is corroded, the Pain is inevitable and I don't have the illusion of being Invincible anymore.
I signed up on blogspot on 4th July '08. Gave an unreasonable name 'BLOG VIBES' which just came out in spur of the moment. Wrote a few posts, advertised it, requested people to read and comment, and somehow got in touch with some awesome bloggers. In due course of time, I realized that they were not simply some unknown random ass prints on the chair in some part of the world, trading in binary and digital modes. They had a life and so it's own brutal and silly bolts, swinging along with them, on fucking broken earth's axis. Some of them turned in to great friends, some were and still are formal with me, and some just pretend that they are friends. A leap from blogspot to orkut, gmail and FB happened. Did conferences, made rules, formed a joint blog. But I realized that frequency mismatch causes noise not only in physics but also in real life. The first joint blog was a dud, and somehow I was responsible for that fiasco, but then I guess,
Throwing up is a better option than getting choked.
Then 'a-shit-for-tat' happened, the idea was to make it funny and wacky just like the name sounds.As an author, I try being a little different on S4T than what I am here, Though I don't fake when I write there, that's somehow my evil and sarcastic side.S4T is alive and I pray that it doesn't get shut down, in the near future.
I used to think that I will thank every single blogger who has read whatever shit i had here, once I hit a half century. On the verge of making it, I was even more eager, but now when I am doing my 5oth post, the timing could not have been worse. I would have elucidated every single life problem, had I been an anonymous soul, without anyone breathing around me, being aware of what I am puking on the cyber world. People know I exist, they have seen me still/moving. My family knows about my blog and so many people who know ME personally, sneak around once in a while. I have a lot of motherf*cking shit to blabber about and take it out off my chest, else I am going to explode. I can't just shut up after being accused, for the so called 'guilty conscience ' will eat me raw, gradually.
College is ending, I have two more exams left, in fact I have one tomorrow, but I don't even feel like flipping the pages, and going through those black letters that I abhor.My roomie is packing his bags, his exams have ended and he will move today, It had been an awesome four years with him. Engg life has given me some awesome friends, that I could not have asked for more . But half of them will move away and I will move away from the rest half.
My world is getting torn apart and i am horizontally attached to both the halves.
Sometimes I feel my life has just shown its trailer, and the movie is still left. I don't have the popcorn or a balcony seat, all I know is that I have a pass to get a free entry and then fight and search for the perfect comfortable seat.
In between the conundrum of future boxes, Series of never-ending nostalgic moments, betrayal and accusations of being a cocky & insensitive individual and a crux of my own choices, I see some of my favorite people disappointing me big time. A big 'THANK YOU' to them, on this special Post.
I don't think, I require to thank individually to all those blogger buddies who have been awesome all this while so thank you all of you, who know, that I would have written the names had this post been a little jolly.
Blogging is the best thing that has happened to me in the recent times and as for the impediments, I guess I have to suck it up and be normal.
P.S : From now on I will be on and off because of the reasons mentioned above but please bear with me and Ohh !! btw for This new template I thank Nidhi, even though It's still incomplete but who cares ?