when u start analyzing yourself and u understand, what is ur drawback, what is killing u, what is immuring u, wat pulls u back, wht sucks u more thn gravity,wht is the uncanniest & most recumbent form of urs .........then believe me u have met ur REAL ENEMY !!
I have met mine & I knw him for more than 20 yrs by now ...and i assume tht it's my negative half....HE is the one whu is responsible for the disasters i have produced,for the embarrassments and humiliations i have gone through, the failures i have seen & the opportunities i have missed !!....
I try to fight with him( i.e, improve myself), i try to kill him( i.e overcome my drawbacks)...but he is stronger than me ..he has his abode in me,he has his grasp over me and i think so is the case with everyone in the world, the negativity is always stronger than positivity....provided u dun try to abolish it..provided u dun try to understand it before it's too late..well... i have understood it but i abhor myself for understanding it so early yet so lately in my life...!!
I regret over a few knotty decisions i made in my lyf tht turned out to be lethal, cz i was amateur i was a kid at tht time but the impact of those silly mistakes are very limpid now.....i damn my inner ENEMY for tht ...so I decided to write on him coz thts the best i can do about it other thn demolishing it 4ever....so here's my creation here's my thought & I presume tht u can also perhaps relate it too urself....and if u can't ..i wud think i am unique and cursed :( :( !!
The ENEMY is IN ME
I scream inside, an extreme STRIVE,
To shut it up, or cut it and RIVE.
A crux crucifying my sense of SATIETY,
Pseudo me, unfolding the path of LAXITY.
It pulls me down my negative HALF,
I kill myself as a matter of LAUGH.
Confidence versus fear and the later always WINS,
I have it in me and guess what it MEANS??
It quenches me, but no one can SEE,
I fight with myself, coz the “the ENEMY is IN ME!!”
He is equal in age but has greater ENORMITY,
He is louder in impact, but a silent ANONYMITY.
He is a parasite and he resides in my BRAIN
Sucks my intelligence and returns me STRAIN.
Illusion is on, I see the end with DISMAY,
He is a part of me or is it the other WAY??
Battle has begun and arena is my MIND,
Ruthless the game is and I need to UNWIND.
Someone stop him he is on killing SPREE,
I am half dead coz ”the ENEMY is IN ME!!”